No I'm not okay. I'm fucking miserable and I don't think I'll ever be loved again because I messed up my only chance. I'm interested in a man who gets sick when I touch him. I'm fucking addicted to a junkie teenager. My best friend in the world is interested in me and I'm scared as hell of fucking our friendship up - so scared I can't stand it. My best female friend is defending Jason, and the last time I saw them together she was telling me how bad he was and how I deserved better and now that I've broken up with him - or him with me - she seems to be moving in on him. And I hate this place. I hate this world. I want to go home.
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Date: 2004-06-21 02:32 pm (UTC)No I'm not okay. I'm fucking miserable and I don't think I'll ever be loved again because I messed up my only chance. I'm interested in a man who gets sick when I touch him. I'm fucking addicted to a junkie teenager. My best friend in the world is interested in me and I'm scared as hell of fucking our friendship up - so scared I can't stand it. My best female friend is defending Jason, and the last time I saw them together she was telling me how bad he was and how I deserved better and now that I've broken up with him - or him with me - she seems to be moving in on him. And I hate this place. I hate this world. I want to go home.I'll be fine.